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    October 31

    The blog I never wanted to write:

    :Goiter Girl reporting for blog duty:
    I must say I'm very disappointed in "life" as of late. One of my only true non bs friends is recovering from very recent brain surgery. She had a tumor removed. A tumor which happens to be cancerous, so she will treated accordingly to hopefully recover 100% and be cancer free. I went to see her in the hospital right after she got the tumor removed. The next morning I woke up with a lump in my throat. HaHa...a tad too ironic for my liking. This lump, which I will refer to as "the nodule", is on my thyroid gland. Its fairly large and you can see it sticking out which is just nasty! So...now its my turn to see if I have cancer. I had bloodwork done today and on Thursday I'll be having an ultrasound. After that I'll be booked for a thyroid uptake scan. During the thyroid uptake scan I'll be injected with radioactive dye. This does not sit well with me at all! I prefer to not be injected by anything at all let alone radioactive dye! I'm going to turn from Goiter Girl into Radioactive Goiter Girl in 2.3 seconds...anyone looking for a new comic book villan? Whether it is cancerous or not I'll most likely have to have surgery to remove "the nodule" anyway. I hate hospitals, I hate doctors, and most of all I hate surgery. I'm actually terrified of it...VERY terrified! I'm supposed to have surgery for an unrelated health problem but have put that off for years due to my surgery fears. I will continue to put it off until that problem becomes life threatening due to my surgery fears. I was really hoping that I wouldnt have any worsening or new health problems for some time to come. I'm 24 years old and have already had numerous health problems varying in severity. From my heart, to my brain, to my blood, endometriosis, and other things along the way. Most of which I still suffer from. I felt as though I had more than enough on my plate!...BUT!...being an overeater I guess there is always room for a lil more! I've never wrote a blog that made mentions of my health problems before because I didnt really want any of you to know. Not even the people closest to me know all about my health problems. Some people know a lil but no one knows the whole story. My most severe health problems all started within 2 years of each other. I tried to share what I was going through with my friends and family but felt none of them understood. I still feel that way today so I keep my feelings about it all inside. Letting them show only to myself in my moments of weakness! I just simply make some people aware of my health problems so they know why I seem to fall off the face of the earth from time to time. So why write the blog I never wanted to write? Hmm...thats a good question.
     
    :Goiter Girl signing off:
    JM~
    October 28

    HAPPY HALLOWEEN

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    Art by Nina

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    JM~

    October 23

    WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS

    You entered: Jolie Mae Lovett

    There are 14 letters in your name.
    Those 14 letters total to 56
    There are 7 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

    Your number is: 11

    The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

    The expression or destiny for #11:
    Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

    The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

    The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

    Your Soul Urge number is: 1

    A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
    Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.

    The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

    The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

    Your Inner Dream number is: 1

    An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
    You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

    **Oddly enough I think my results were mostly true**

    What does your name mean?

    JM~

    October 17

    Wanna trade... =S

    Wanna trade pics?
    This message appears quite often in my myspace inbox.
    What exactly does it mean? Wanna trade pics?...
     
    Is it some slang term for I'll show you Mr. Jimmy Johnson if you show me your tu-lip and the two fatty sacs that protrude from your chest? WTF? Do people just automatically assume that you have naked pictures of yourself?...and are willing to share them with strangers at that? Maybe my distaste in humankind makes me think there is a hidden meaning to the phrase. Maybe wanna trade pics simply means wanna trade pics. If so WTF? again! Why would you want to have a bunch of pictures of clothed strangers on your personal computer? Why would strangers want to give you pictures of themselves anyway?
     
    Am I missing something here?
    WTF?
    JM~
    October 14

    Mother Is God...?

    If a mother is god in the eyes of a child...
    What happens if the mother is taken over by the devil?
     
    What happens to the child?
    What does the child think then?...
    What does "mother" mean to you?
    Does your mother fill that description?
     
    JM~

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