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October 31 The blog I never wanted to write::Goiter Girl reporting for blog duty:
I must say I'm very disappointed in "life" as of late. One of my only true non bs friends is recovering from very recent brain surgery. She had a tumor removed. A tumor which happens to be cancerous, so she will treated accordingly to hopefully recover 100% and be cancer free. I went to see her in the hospital right after she got the tumor removed. The next morning I woke up with a lump in my throat. HaHa...a tad too ironic for my liking. This lump, which I will refer to as "the nodule", is on my thyroid gland. Its fairly large and you can see it sticking out which is just nasty! So...now its my turn to see if I have cancer. I had bloodwork done today and on Thursday I'll be having an ultrasound. After that I'll be booked for a thyroid uptake scan. During the thyroid uptake scan I'll be injected with radioactive dye. This does not sit well with me at all! I prefer to not be injected by anything at all let alone radioactive dye! I'm going to turn from Goiter Girl into Radioactive Goiter Girl in 2.3 seconds...anyone looking for a new comic book villan? Whether it is cancerous or not I'll most likely have to have surgery to remove "the nodule" anyway. I hate hospitals, I hate doctors, and most of all I hate surgery. I'm actually terrified of it...VERY terrified! I'm supposed to have surgery for an unrelated health problem but have put that off for years due to my surgery fears. I will continue to put it off until that problem becomes life threatening due to my surgery fears. I was really hoping that I wouldnt have any worsening or new health problems for some time to come. I'm 24 years old and have already had numerous health problems varying in severity. From my heart, to my brain, to my blood, endometriosis, and other things along the way. Most of which I still suffer from. I felt as though I had more than enough on my plate!...BUT!...being an overeater I guess there is always room for a lil more! I've never wrote a blog that made mentions of my health problems before because I didnt really want any of you to know. Not even the people closest to me know all about my health problems. Some people know a lil but no one knows the whole story. My most severe health problems all started within 2 years of each other. I tried to share what I was going through with my friends and family but felt none of them understood. I still feel that way today so I keep my feelings about it all inside. Letting them show only to myself in my moments of weakness! I just simply make some people aware of my health problems so they know why I seem to fall off the face of the earth from time to time. So why write the blog I never wanted to write? Hmm...thats a good question.
:Goiter Girl signing off:
JM~ October 23 WHAT YOUR NAME MEANSYou entered: Jolie Mae Lovett
There are 14 letters in your name. Your number is: 11 The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer. The expression or destiny for #11: The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form. The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need. Your Soul Urge number is: 1 A Soul Urge number of 1 means: The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings. The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people. Your Inner Dream number is: 1 An Inner Dream number of 1 means: **Oddly enough I think my results were mostly true** JM~ October 17 Wanna trade... =SWanna trade pics?
This message appears quite often in my myspace inbox.
What exactly does it mean? Wanna trade pics?...
Is it some slang term for I'll show you Mr. Jimmy Johnson if you show me your tu-lip and the two fatty sacs that protrude from your chest? WTF? Do people just automatically assume that you have naked pictures of yourself?...and are willing to share them with strangers at that? Maybe my distaste in humankind makes me think there is a hidden meaning to the phrase. Maybe wanna trade pics simply means wanna trade pics. If so WTF? again! Why would you want to have a bunch of pictures of clothed strangers on your personal computer? Why would strangers want to give you pictures of themselves anyway?
Am I missing something here?
WTF?
JM~ October 14 Mother Is God...? |
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